not really a question

more a fact of life... forget going to the mattresses, can you go to the mirror?... if you don't like what you see, you will not be with me...

matters of interpretation

speaking of biblical chapters and verses, did you ever consider 1 Corinthians 13:11 might have meant so say When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I felt as a child, I thought as a child. Now that I have become a man, I have lost the child. In other words, in accepting the concepts of being grown-up and taking responsibility, you lose the wonderfully clear perspective of innocence and simplicity that leads to truth that only children maintain...

it might suggest that everything we know is wrong and becoming a man means becoming the self-destructive suicidal ignorant fear-filled beings that any child can see we are... even accepting it as I have left the child behind seems all too accurate... but then, who wants to face that depressing thought?...

help

how often have you said...

"i am only trying to help"

when what you meant was...

"i am really trying to control"

and you never knew...

why the person you were trying to help went away...

...

who is that chameleon in the mirror?

could i be the mirror that smiles inside all the time and yet, to those who see me as their reflection (the strange chameleon posture and facial expression is what does it, but some secrets may be beyond current consciousness), or projection, afraid to actualize the love and share the trust that inspires the smile, i am as they wish me to be...

no wonder they complain about me so much, and vice versa :}

nothing coy about it

if you do not do it, you lose it
if you do not do it, it does not exist
even if you think it does
even if you create a feeling inside
that fools you into believing you do
if you do not do it, you don't

did you care today?
what did you do?

value

facebook is appalled! (or is it appalling?)… no, really, what do you truly value in this life?

social what?

laughing at the fact that i get text messages to remind me to check facebook messages that remind me of events i have been invited to (sometimes)... and laughing at myself for rhetorically wondering whatever happened to phone calls from friends to invite you over (oh yeah, voicemail :)

visits?...

maybe laughing is not what i really mean?

being grown ups

on the responsibility of being and understanding (or understanding being, for that matter)...

does simplification of everything into judgements of good and bad really make it easier for children to understand life, pain, tragedy, cruelty, and ultimately death or is it really the grown ups who placate their own fear by creating a black and white good and evil delusional rationalization to avoiding facing the responsibility and colors of their own actions in this life, on this planet, and in this universe?...